Honestly, I’m not a big fan of the title. It seems like it’s going to be about overtly emotional teenagers, and let’s be honest, I really can’t handle that theme. I’m a cynical 27 year old, not to mention I’m very judgemental. But after I saw the synopsis on Goodreads, I feel like I should gave this book a try, besides I like the character’s name, Aysel. Such a gorgeous name. But, is the book anywhere close to gorgeous the name Aysel is?
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
Boy, was this a quick read for me or what? Now, don’t get me wrong; when I say that this was a quick read it’s not because it was not a fun read, as a matter of fact, I enjoyed this book quite a bit much that I had to finish it without further delay. I like the fact that there was a timeline in this book that you can follow through, so it does not really put you on an edge as to how the book would end; sure, you’re still wondering whether or not the main character eventually kill themselves, but it’s not as bad as not knowing when it’s going to end.
Honestly, one thing was very annoying to me. What is up with the author’s way of being vague about what/how/why Aysel’s dad what he did? You can tell that from the first few pages that Aysel is as miserable as she is because of what Aysel’s dad did prior to where the book start. At some point you knew what he did, but the author was like being vague about it, which I can understand because it should take a huge revealing session, but she kept on mentioning throughout the book over and over and over again but being annoyingly vague about it. Eventually, instead of making me curious about what Aysel’s dad did, I was just straight up annoyed and can’t gives two rats about it. Characters wise, after reading The Art of Being Normal, reading the characters in this book was definitely a walk in the park, the nice kind of park; everyone was obviously not overtly evil, if anything I would categorise them as fairly tame. Seriously, the so called ‘bullying’ in this book is nothing that I can’t handle, but the depressing thoughts and the guilt and the what have you, yeah, maybe that’s a bit out of my league.
Let’s be honest here, when you have a guy and a girl in a YA book, most probably (emphasise on the word most) they’ll end up liking each other or at least one of them would. So, that pretty small part is obviously predictable and it didn’t surprise me at all. What surprised me is how the author works the story from there; she didn’t make the whole love situation a complicated thing, it was just some condiment. The main issue was still about Aysel and Roman’s suicide pact. It was nice to have the story sticks to the main theme even with a little bit of a stopover on ‘hey-i-seem-to-have-a-bit-of-a-crush-on-you-who-would-have-thought-about-that-right-?’ land.
I have nothing to complain about this book (well, except at how the author annoys me to no end with her vague way of keeping the information on what Aysel’s did until almost the end of the book), everything about this book is not overtly written, everything was just simple which makes everything seems relatable. Go and give this book a try if you ever have any or some depressing thoughts, especially regarding suicide. I like the fact that this book although it obviously did not condone suicide, it didn’t go and make this comment about how life is such a lollipop and rainbows and it would be such a shame if one was to kill themselves; it made the point that life was going to be hard, the road to recovery would not be easy but it’s worth the try especially if you reach out and find someone that can help you go through it all.
Title: My Heart and Other Black Holes
Author: Jasmine Warga
Genre: Fiction, Young Adult, Contemporary, Romance